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Dear Still Water Friends,
Many of us suffer from chronic busyness – a sense of having so
many things to do and not having enough time to do it. We keep plugging
on, hurrying to finish this task so we can get on to the next.
Janet Ruffing, in a lovely essay called "The Demon of Busyness"
(available at www.worship.ca/docs/p_31_jr.html)
believes that this unending busyness “is profoundly
destructive to self-intimacy, intimacy with the Divine,
interrelationships, reflective thought, the social fabric of our
society, our care for the planet, and our own psychological and
physical health.” She also notes that contrary to the way
most people think about it, busyness is not directly related to how
many things we have to do:
Often “very busy”
people, that is, people who carry major responsibility, manage to
“have all the time” in the world. They do not create an
added infusion of “busyness” in their internal attitude
toward the work of the day or the conduct of relationships. They do not
appear to be racing against the clock. When you are with them, you feel
as if you are the only one with whom they are concerned. They do not
rush you. They do not rush themselves. They are present, spontaneous,
relaxed, receptive. They are able to pay attention to deeper levels of
reality.
Sister Jina, the Abbess of Plum Village’s Lower Hamlet
explains concretely how it is possible to be active and engaged,
but not in a hurry:
When we walk in a hurried way we
don’t rest in every step. Instead, we seem to quickly touch the
earth in order to get somewhere. So I practice taking the hurry out of
my steps so that I can come to rest in every step. It is a bit tricky
because there is something in me that tells me if you don’t hurry
you will be late. But I also experience that if I don’t hurry I
will get there much faster because the hurry comes from the worry and
the worry is very heavy and slows me down. If I drop the hurry and the
worry I can move a bit quicker and be in every step and be on time. You
can try, it is very interesting to experiment with that. You can meet
this habit energy that says you have to hurry or you will be late. You
can move faster but you don’t need to hurry. It is very handy
when you are at the airport and a bit late.
So if busyness is not helpful or sustaining, why is it so common? Janet
Ruffing’s insight is that we become overwhelmed by busyness
because of ego and institutional pressures. We lose our mindful
connection with our bodies and hearts:
there is something about the
feeling of busyness that is exhilarating. There is an altered state of
consciousness I experience when I swing into action and begin working
through today’s “to do” list. A burst of adrenalin
carries me from one activity to another. How many things can I get done
in the shortest amount of time? Racing against the clock becomes a
game, sometimes an unhealthy competition, but nevertheless a game.
While I am occupied orchestrating this internal race against time, I
can feel both strong and important. My ego is firmly in control. I am
clearly the centre of these activities. This particular state of mind
is, of course, illusionary.
. . . When I am busy being busy,
I avoid making time for leisure, for play, for relationships, for
reflection. I take delight in moving fast, being caught up in the
rhythm of an institution, a city, a community that runs me, that
overwhelms my internal sense of self and my felt responses to internal
and external events. I am actually being captivated by a
“false” consciousness that is largely generated by the
culture outside of me. I go on automatic while believing I am still in
charge. When I am busy, I can believe myself to be incredibly important
to the scheme of things. I become indispensable, necessary. My ego
becomes reassured (while this state lasts) that I am productive,
accomplishing something worthwhile and valuable.
Please join us this Thursday for our (unhurried) meditation period and
for our discussion of busyness in our lives. Do you agree with Janet
Ruffing that our busyness comes not from the length of our to do lists,
but from our egos and our acquiescence to institutional pressures?
Also, you are invited to join us for an orientation to mindfulness practice and the Still Water community which begins at 6:30.
Warm wishes,
Mitchell Ratner
Senior Teacher